Melinda J. Irvine

This moon has a scent
black and pungent
a small crack

surrounded in smoke.
It slashes at your door
when the lights are

gone, and demands
a daughter. She
bargained herself for

her small sister’s
stead (did the little
girl see what her sister

did not?) while we’ve
locked into ourselves.
Some of us inside

steel walls shaped
with severed bottles
and others

behind flimsy padlocks
securing pieces of
woven bamboo.

Father sleeps two
hours broken while
mother and daughter

watch. Mother sleeps
two hours while
father sits silent

the whole night
watching this moon
listening the street

sounds of dogs
and in the morning
stories from the

next barangay
creep among us.
All we pray

like moons
so too this
shall pass.

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On Monday as 9 year old Jerry and I walked into a neighbouring purok to invite some kids to his birthday party, an old lady I know came shrieking down a dirt road.

“Patay! Patay!” (dead! dead!) she cried, her hand raised as she motioned like a throat being cut. Someone had just been murdered in their home, the third in just one month.

“Careful Ma’am! Careful Ma’am!” her voice panicked. A group of women gathered.

Violent crime in Estancia has escalated in the past year but since I arrived back here from Australia less than two weeks ago the people are afraid like I have not before seen. They’re especially afraid because it’s not political crimes that target those with ‘connections‘ but seemingly random acts  affecting regular people (people like you and me) who catch fish, grow vegetables or have a small store.

They tell of men in masks at front doors raping women and girls or scaling walls and killing  folks in their beds. They tell of stabbings at market, tricycles burned, houses robbed and guard dogs poisoned. And not in the next town: it’s two doors down, it’s the place where we buy fish and vegetables it’s  across the road and it’s like some crazy movie that is really happening.

“Don’t open your door at night, don’t go out after dark, lock everything and leave the lights on.” my landlord told me yesterday after explaining the horror that a 17 year old girl endured to save her 13 year old sister.

And now here am I (while little Jerry sleeps) trying to reconcile this place where we live. It’s a place, you live here. You buy food, you cook, you eat, you take your kid to school, you have birthday parties, you have friends and you try not to fall into a place where fear dictates and controls. You try to say little so you don’t worry your parents or feel like you’re preaching or bringing everyone into negativity and darkness. And I guess the only way I can cope and continue really is to write. And write. And write.

Oh it would be wonderful to still be posting a quiet Australian life on lonely beaches, flowers and the bright songs of birds and so, so easy to take the bus to the city and get on a plane and never come back. But what about the people who can’t? My people here. What about Jerry?

Regular folk who imagine a quiet life on lonely beaches, flowers and bright songs of birds who can’t take a bus or get on a plane.  Who can only buy a cheap padlock and wrap it around the bamboo frame that surrounds their children and pray to God for a new moon.

Mel Irvine
Estancia, (Iloilo) Philippines

© 2017 Melinda Irvine
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